God,

I'm really trying to be patient. But as you know... it is very hard from me. I'm trying to listen to Your words and hear what You have to say. But it's hard. I'm a pretty independent person, but You already know that because you made me this way.

My heart is still hurting. And I guess I really don't know what to do or where to go from here. I want to trust you more and reach out to you more. I just am scared of the unknown. I've never been comfortable or safe there.

I just don't really know anymore. And it's hard. Really hard.